Love and Life

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I am George Stevenson. I met Cathy Lawry in the High school. She was a pretty girl. Her eyes were in brown color and she had a nice long blond hair. We were in the same age too.  I was fascinated about her and we became very good friends in months. After one year of friendship, we became lovers. Cathy meant everything to me, since then.

After I finished the High school, I had to find out a job. I did many jobs but I couldn’t find a fare job for me. So...I didn’t have money in my pocket.  But Cathy never said a word about it. She always ecouraged me to find a job. back in time, I noticed that couple of rich guys were tailing on Cathy. But she never cared about them. She always stick with me. I was really happy about her love. That was the only thing I got.

Time passed, I knew that without a job, I’m gonna loose Cathy soon. However I got a sales job in a super market, where I found my destiny.

There, three other sales guys were there, and practicing as a music band. I was born in talent for guitars. Eventually we set up our band and got chances to play in parties. It didn’t passed years; our success was rising up day by day. We quit from our sales jobs and played full time. Once we got a TV show and we hit the jackpot.

There after nobody stopped our blooming success. Our band was popular so rapidly. All this time Cathy was nearby me like my shadow. Money was coming to me continuously. I spent more and more money for her. It was the happiest time of my life.

But day by day, my life was changing; I got much money, lots of friends, and the girls. Most of the nights, I was drunk. Eventually Cathie’s association was a headache for me. I wanted to stay away from her. Because, I felt Cathy ruins my privacy. I met new girls every night. I didn’t want to stick with Cathy any more. But she came to me almost every time she could. 

One evening she came to my apartment, on that day I was with another girl. But she didn’t blame  me. but she just asked:

“Why…why this? What happened to you Darling?”

I felt much guilty; I thought she may jump on me like a devil. But she didn’t do that. I felt shame on me. I felt guilty about me. Finally I got angry about myself. But I exposed my anger on her…

“Bitch…you don’t need to come to me anymore…let me live my life alone…this is mine...not yours....get lost you bitch…!!!”
  

She left me forever on that day. I didn’t see her again. it was so ease to my mind. After one year, I left Munich. I came to Nuremberg and my life was a heaven since then. I got all most all the happiness, there. Girls, money, Drunk nights, fancy cars.... I thought this is the life.

Life was going like a fairytale, for another eight years. One night I felt very uncomfortable in my body. So I got some tablets and energy drinks like the other days. But it was continuing for two three weeks. Eventually, I got fever too. Some time I sweat all over my body in nights. I felt that my body is not same any more. Finally I stopped by a doctor.

There, I got the shocking news of my life. I was infected by HIV. In a second, I realized everything. But I was too late. 

Eventually my body and Soul were decaying. I was abandoned by my music band so easily.. My friends abandoned me. but still I got money to spend.  I used to take medicine for every day now. But I knew that... very near future, medicine cannot makes me live further. day by day I reached to my death. Sometimes while I was just sleeping on my bed, I memorized my past. There, I felt "Cathy", as one and only my own angel. She full filled all my life. My inside was filled with her memories...only her memories. She was the one and only thing which is remained in my mind  after all.Then I realized what was there in my subconscious. But everything is now gone.

One day, while I was lying on my bed, in the nursing room, I saw my living angel was coming to me. Though I didn’t see her for last 10 years, it was not difficult to recognize her pretty face.  

“She is  more prettier than before” I thought to myself. here is my life... again...for a second I felt like... good old days. but it lasted only for few seconds....  

I’m just a living Skeleton. She came and stand in front of me. I couldn’t stare at her eyes straightly any more. I turned my head down.  I felt, my eyes were getting wet, eventually that wet made tear drops and they were spilling over....one by one on my cheeks. Suddenly I felt something run through my hair, in seconds I remembered warm feelings of her hands, on my head, after ten years of time. she was running her fingers through my hair. I couldn’t stay still anymore. I just hold and tight her hands in my hands. There... I felt the wedding ring on her left hand’s ring finger. I screamed and cried a lot. So... her too. There was no more to talk. Silent was so good for me, rather than making sad by talking any more. She left me after few minutes and promised to visit me again, as soon as she can.

When she was leaving I felt that, there is no more strength to live, in my body or soul. 

After 13 days of the above incident, one morning, a nurse found George's dead body, on the bed in the nursing room. His diary was found inside his pillow cover. 

This was the "love and life" story of “George Stevenson”.  

By Manu Fernando